no maps allowed

May 13, 2008 by fitchkie

i watched jim carrey’s bruce almighty on cable rerun this morning and i think i never really  appreciated it the way i’m raving about it right now. [[hmmm, maybe not raving.  just... okay, appreciating.]]  i’ve seen it  twice already before today and not that i’m obligated to like it more this time but i think i actually do. made me realize that some things in life are to be seen or experienced many different times and under many different circumstances before any good amount of sense could ever really  come out of them.  bruce almighty, for one, just gave me a whole new perspective about something i haven’t been very good at: making plans. now i think i’ll be whiz at it. 

of course, making something out of the plans is another story.  but i think the movie did burst with lessons, only unfortunately, they almost drowned under all that jim carrey comic.

in the movie, bruce could do anything and everything he could possibly conceive in his sometimes twisted mind… everything EXCEPT anything that came in the way of another person’s FREE WILL. we know that’s how the movie played basically.  well, while watching it, i had this sudden burst of bright light in my head (not dead) about that not-getting-in-the-way-of-others’-free-will being an element in the matter of plans. ya, plans.  plans we make about our lives. plans we make about our children’s lives. plans our children make on what to ask santa for on Christmas.  even plans that civil engineers make.

doesn’t it just make sense that we can make all the plans we want with such accuracy and precision and a thousand-percent success expectancy rate EXCEPT EXCEPT EXCEPT when the plan involves the free will of others?  for example, if a student aspires for honors at graduation,  he will mostly likely get it if he plans well enough what to do with his time.  he gets his honors because of his outstanding performance and that clearly does not leave room for anybody to have to want or not want the honors awarded ( unless in situations you don’t even want to talk about.) there’s no free will here except the free will of the person planning which is, of course, given. but here’s what… when a guy courts a girl, he can have all the plans in the world where to take her, what to give her, how to kiss her, how to make her feel like a woman, a queen, a moviestar all in a day’s work. but if the girl won’t let him, he’s dead. he’s as dead meat as all his plans  and it would be like there  were never any such plans to begin with.

di baaaa????

it’s sad sometimes, but that’s just the way it goes.  after watching the movie this morning, it’s all written up there in my head: DO NOT EXPECT FROM PEOPLE.  it’s not a very positive way of looking at it but  why would you  believe  your plans are perfect when there’s somebody out there who just might have his own plans getting in the way of yours? or EVEN if he doesn’t intend to? great if you both  have the same goal in mind but what if you don’t?  where would it leave you?  okay, you can plan alright even if it involves other people’s free will but just DON’T EXPECT. AT ALL.  you can plan how much to save up for next Christmas, how to do your hair for that new year countdown party, you can plan a diet, how to lose this much weight over this much time, where to buy the best tokwa if you’re trying to build muscle or whatever.  but hell, don’t expect to win anyone on your side by doing any of those.  you can try. we can try. that’s the risk of being human and being alive and being happy. but if you keep having plans that will ultimately involve other people’s own plans and decisions -  wwwweeeewww - you should be so outta there.and i’m outta here. for now.  i’m so crashing. timecheck: 3:04am.

 

 

ciao!

  

 

 

captured!

May 9, 2008 by fitchkie

forgiveness is so big a word most people can’t even contain it, much less practice it in the real world where there is reason to forgive because there are sinners and there are sins — two more big words that make the issue much more complicated or then again, insanely simpler for those who’ve “mastered” the skill.but for those of us who have yet to, everyday is a battle with a hurtful past.

i’m not a moralist, i’m not a life coach, and i have a throng of names buried way way down my to-forgive list which i started filling at the age of eight. believe me, it gets hard when you’re 35 and you’re still counting. it makes you sick to think that after all those years, it still makes you sick that some people had treated you in the sickest ways possible and you just can’t get over it. it’s a sick sick sick cycle. that’s why i believe we NEED to forgive. people need to break that cycle of feeling sorry for themselves because quite frankly, it’s just the pride that we think we lost to our offenders that keeps us from letting go. forgiveness gives us back that pride and makes us whole again.

Hello world!

May 9, 2008 by fitchkie

Welcome to WordPress.com. This is your first post. Edit or delete it and start blogging!